lizabeth

The only place I have support is here. At home psh!!! Heck No!!

My Sister EAT EVERYTHING!! and she is skinny!! Oh how I hate her!!! I come home from the store with food for my diet and what does she do EAT IT! I bought special K cereal for me because I have a hard time eating breakfast, GONE in one day. I only had 1 bowl. I’m not trying to be stingy but seriously a whole box of cereal gone in one day …. I mean that’s all I see her eat. Chips, Cereal, uh … that’s really it. Oh and crackers or cookies. She’ll make cookies if we don’t have any and she’s still 97lbs!! I mean can I just die!!!

My dad he always buys junk!! and he makes JUNK!!!

My mom … she’s trying to help but if I make a comment about what she’s going to cook like “oh I’m going to make bake chicken” and if I hesitate she gets all bent out of shape. Or if I make something else they just glare at me.

SERIOUSLY!!!! I am 190 I have fat on my back I have FAT on my BUTT I have a HUGE BELLY!!!! Seriously!!! Oh I have GALLSTONES so any type of FAT makes it HURT!!!!!!

It seriously pisses me off.

My husband eh … he doesn’t make food. He sometimes eats what I cook but sometimes I have my down days [like right now] but he never helps me to get motivated and do what I need to do.

Yesterday I didn’t do anything. I wanted to but the tire in the jogging stoller was flat, the innertube has a hole in it, tried to patch it but I think we need to get a new one …. great. I wanted to do Jillian Michaels but our room was a mess!! [and my husband never helps me keep the place tiddy] and everyone was eating dinner in the kitchen so I wasn’t going to do it there. So my husband takes a nap and my son was sleeping so I was going to try to do some sit ups and push ups and then go on the tread but then my son wakes up!! And he jumps on ANYONE who is on the floor so sit ups and push ups were out of the question so I make him food sit him down then I tried to go on the tread but as Im lacing up, my parents can’t figure out how to work the dvd player remote [it only operates by remote genius huh! >.<] so then I have to help them.[all they needed to push was DVD on the remote! AHHH!!] then my son is all full of food so I go give him a bath then my parents are watching tv now I’m getting my kids cleaned then after I’m done I put on their pjs let them watch some tv with my parents ,hopeing I can go try to go on the tread then I hear my daughter arguing and yelling and screaming! AH time out for her. my son is cranky wants me My parents go to their room my daughter is on the couch screaming and yelling because she doesn’t want to be on time out. my dad gets mad makes her get off time out. I get upset because she’s not listening my dad isn’t helping. so she stays on the couch until she’s quiet. My husband wakes up so I give him our son go to my daughter give her a talk send her to bed. By the time she went to bed it was 930. my son was cranky so we sent him to bed at 945 by then I just wanted to SIT DOWN!! AHHH!!!!

I tell you I get no help.

This is all that I do.

Clean and feed kids. Sometimes I want to pull my hair out!! when I finally have time to sit and eat SOMETHING my daughter wants something else. EVERYTIME!! WHY!!!!!

I need a vacation. A vacation where I can get some EXERCISING IN!!!

With all that I do I don’t know why I am still heavy. I never eat. really I never have time too. It’s always go go go.

>.<

First I want to thank Vanessa, Jason, and Jessie for their opinions on my last blog. [and vanessa I will keep yours in mind]

So today I jogged/walked on the tread for an hour and my distance was 3.23 miles woohoo!!! Then I did wii fit just focused on strength and sculpting and then I did jillian Michaels. Still on Level 1 but I don’t feel as weak.

I’m posting pretty early because my hubby and I are going out! YAY haha We are going to see Up he took the kids last week I didn’t want to go I was feeling like poo. But I will stay away from popcorn and all of that. I will probably sneak in some water. ^_^ Water there is expensive!!

My husband wants to go to a frozen yogurt place … I dunno … I’m thinking about it. They have fat free stuff but I’m more worried about the calories since I just worked my butt off too melt!! haha but will see. I hope I wont be tempted. Unless we park by the theatre walk to get it and walk back!! haha burn it off!! Maybe Ah I miss it. We used to go there once a week. It’s really REALLY good and they’re really big on serving just low fat and fat free stuff and their toppings are usually sugar free or fat free or FRUIT!

I’m trying to convince myself that it’s ok. haha

Well I hope everyone has a good night!!!